Post by jessicablake on Sept 9, 2010 2:09:39 GMT -5
*I pull into the driveway of Jessica and Wade's home and turn my truck off. I get out of the truck, and almost get knocked over by Jessica running at me and hugging me. I hug her back and laugh*
Alexia Fender:
Umm.. hi?
Jessica Blake:
Sorry... I just... Thank you!!!
Alexia Fender:
I just got here.. What could I have possibly done?
*Jessica finally pulls away and looks at me, smiling.*
Jessica Blake:
For binging Wade back to me. Alexia.. You truly are my best friend.
Alexia Fender:
That's what I'm here for isn't it? And you're welcome.. You were miserable without him Jess... I'm not an idiot.. You needed him.
Jessica Blake:
You're right.. I did. Comeon.. Help me pick something out for tonight..
*I follow Jessica into the house, waving to Wade in the kitchen as we pass it. I walk upstairs to their bedroom and sit on their bed as she starts looking through her clothes.*
Jessica Blake:
Now all that's left.. Is to get you who you need back.
Alexia Fender:
That's cute Jess. You know damn well there is NOONE I need.
Jessica Blake:
Gabe.
*My heart drops, as Jess mentions his name. I look down, but then look up and laugh a little*
Alexia Fender:
Oh please... I FAR from need him.. Trust me. Besides.. isn't he with that little idiot?
*Jessica laughs as she changes into a pair of jeans and a purple tank top.*
Jessica Blake:
We can change that... And you know it..
*She looks over at me and lowers her eyebrows*
Jessica Blake:
Lexi.. It'll all work out.. I promise..
*I nod slowly and look out of the window as Jessica finishes getting ready*
*After our opening act, a comedian, What the hell?, makes his way off the stage, Jess looks over at me.*
Jessica Blake:
Are you sure you wanna do this song.. first?
*I force a smile out at her, as my yes. We walk up onto the stage to people cheering. I wave slightly, and picks up my guitar, putting the strap over my shoulder. I nod to the band and they start playing "Desperation" as I join them with my guitar*
Alexia Fender:
throw a dog a bone
I'll take it if I have to
Go real fast
Like theres somewhere we can get to
Whats the use of standing right there on the edge
If there ain't nowhere to fall
Whats the use in hanging on tight to the phone
If nobody might call
Jessica Blake and Alexia Fender:
Desperation
Theres danger in frustration
Jessica Blake:
Complicated words slippin off of your tounge
And ain't one of them the truth
Jessica Blake and Alexia Fender:
I'm still desperate for you
Alexia Fender:
Tell it like a lie
Live it like a movie
Give a heart away like it don't mean nothin to me
Whats the use in makin all the plans that we made
If you weren't gonna go?
Whats the use in slappin the smile off her face
If your eyes don't wanna show.
Jessica Blake and Alexia Fender:
Desperation
Theres danger in frustration
Jessica Blake:
Complicated words slippin off of your tounge
And ain't one of them the truth
Jessica Blake and Alexia Fender:
I'm still desperate for you
Alexia Fender:
Well its too damn bad
You didn't have the chance
To make me your best friend
You were too caught up
In givin too much up
And not doing what you should have been
Jessica Blake and Alexia Fender:
Desperation
Theres danger in frustration
Jessica Blake:
Complicated words slippin off of your tounge
And ain't one of them the truth
Jessica Blake and Alexia Fender:
I'm still desperate for you
*As the song ends, Before anyone can give me any looks or ask if I'm okay, I head right into starting to play the next song.*
I walk down the hallway, my hands in my back pockets, towards the Sirens locker room. I looks down the hallway and see someone walk out of a locker room, stopping dead in my tracks. Gabe Shelley, And the locker room... Natalie Burrow's... I take a deep breath before turning on my heels slowly to try and walk away before he notices me....Gabe's head scans the hallways, always making sure not to run into Alli Taylor, as he spots Fender. His heart skips a beat as it had been months since he had seen her. He takes a step to the left, heading right towards her. He chokes on his words and fumbles them...
Gabe Shelley: Ale- Alexia...?
*I stop walking and sigh. Why? Why did she have to do this? I force myself to smile and turn slowly to look at him, and when I do, my breath catches in my throat*
Alexia Fender: Hey Gabe..
*Is that a... No, Whatever, I'm seeing things.. He slides his hands in his pockets and looks at me*
Gabe Shelley: You're back... you look, great.
Alexia Fender: Thanks.. And yeah.. We have Jessie.. Working on getting Wade's company back..
*Gabe smiles, but bites his lip. His nervous habit.. Mine slowly coming out.. My thickening accent.
Gabe Shelley: Yeah, it's been a rough journey for Wade I know that much. He and I kinda stopped talking after Jess went missing.
Alexia Fender: I heard...
Gabe Shelley: Hey, is something wrong? You seem totally... spaced. Plus, there is that southern drawl you have going on.
*God damnit...*
Alexia Fender: I do not..
Gabe Shelley: You know... you can tell me.
*I can feel my temper starting to get to me.. Or jealousy... They feel the same.*
Alexia Fender: No.. I can't.. don't you have a skank to be spending time with?
Gabe Shelley: Don't do that, Alexia. There's is no reason to act that way, you don't know her at all
*I look at Gabe and shake my head*
Alexia Fender: Whatever Gabe..
*IShe start to turn away from him again when he reaches out and puts his hand on my shoulder, stopping me.*
Gabe Shelley: Please, for me just chill and talk to me?
*...Is he serious? I spin around fast and look at him*
Alexia Fender: FOR YOU? JUST TALK TO YOU??? That's fuckin rich Gabe... It really is.
Gabe Shelley: What? The fact that I missed you and just want to talk to you? It's rich because why, I care? I'm sorry that things didn't go differently, things happened that were out of our control. When you left to find Jess, you left me here alone.
*His eyes fill with sadness, pain. But I'm not about to give in*
Alexia Fender: You missed me? MISSED ME? You sure as hell moved on fast enough Gabe... Save it for the next skank who spreads her legs for you okay? Cause I'm not buying it.
*Gabe looks at me, with only pain in his eyes, but my anger still doesn't subside*
Gabe Shelley: I'm sorry that I started to try and date after 3 months, I'm sorry that I've had to try and find a way to forget you Alexia. You don't think I sat there every day wishing you'd call? Wishing I could help you find Jessie?
Alexia Fender: And you don;t have a god damn phone Gabe? Please.. Like I said.. don;t feed me this bullshit. You could have picked up the god damn phone anytime you want... But once little miss blondie goodie-two-shoes came along.. who the fuck remembers Alexia right? go fuck yourself..
Alexia Fender: OH!! So now its Alyson and Wade's fault!!! You fu...
*I look around and see crew members looking at us, I grab Gabe by his shirt pulling him into a locker room. After kciking the door shut I slam Gabe back against the door, boucing his head off of it before letting go*
Alexia Fender: Just stay the hell away from me Gabe.. STAY AWAY FROM ME. Don't even THINK about me.
*He grabs the back of his head and rubs it.*
Gabe Shelley: Yeah, let me just forget. That head to the door a few more times might just do it, want to give it a shot?
*I can see him starting to get frustrated, Maybe i shouldn;t have done it so hard but hey, i'm pissed... And hes calm.. He always was the level headed one..*
Gabe Shelley: Alexia, it's no ones fault. What you did was an amazing thing, it's what I would have done if my friend was missing. But just I'm dating someone right now doesn't mean you weren't special to me, that you don't MEAN something to me.
Alexia Fender: Shut up... Just shut the fuck up.. I hate you Gabe... I go off to find Jessica.. and you couldn;t wait a few god damn months to get your dick sucked.. so you move the fuck on? I hate you... And I never wanna see you ever again..
*I make my way to the door but he keeps his back against it*
Gabe Shelley:
Alexia Fender: Move!
Gabe Shelley: No. For your information, I haven't got my dick sucked. I'm dating someone, I'm sorry that I had NO idea when you'd ever come back. I'm sorry that I sat there every day and worried, missing you.
*Now his eyes are on fire.. Something that only happens when hes fighting for something real.. *
Alexia Fender: I'm not fucking DEAD Gabe... Jesus Christ, You knew I was coming back eventually!!! But it doesn't matter... You're with her now.. which means.. Alexia.. out of sight out of mind... Now.. Move
Gabe Shelley: No. Did I know, really? For all I knew, Reno had kidnapped you too. I sat there helpless because no one wanted to keep me in the loop.
Alexia Fender: And what if he had.. and what if he had killed me...? You wouldn;t be concerned at all.. you'd be here.. with HER..
Gabe Shelley: I can't believe you'd say that. I WOULD care, I would have gone after him and made sure he pay for it. Just because I'm dating Natalie doesn't mean you're less important to me.
Alexia Fender: YOU WOULDNT KNOW GABE. YOU'D BE HERE LIVING YOUR LIFE WITH PRECIOUS NATALIE... AND YES THATS EXACTLY WHAT THAT MEANS!! WE CANT BOTH BE THAT IMPORTANT TO YOU GABE..
*No.. No.. That is not a ta falling from my eye.. God damnit... He reaches up and wipes it away, but I quickly swat his hand away*
Gabe Shelley: Don't say that, you are. That's why it hurt not having you here, Alexia. I would have found out and when I did....- They'd probably lock me up for what I'd do.
Alexia Fender: If I was THAT important.. you would have tried to find me... Like we were doing for Jessica... But instead.. you stayed.. and moved on.. Congratulations..
Gabe Shelley: I did look for you. I called stations, tried to get info from Wade, tried to talk to all of the Sirens.
*I turn my back to him, refusing to let him see the tears falling from my eyes*
Alexia Fender: But you didn't get off your god damn ass and DO something... Except of course get between that skanks legs... Like I said... Congrats.. Now leave me alone..
Gabe Shelley: What did you expect me to do? Go to each major city and look in every building? I did what I could, Alexia. And I haven't been between her legs, thank you very much.
Alexia Fender: I'm sure..
*I look over my shoulder and see he moved a little. I wipe my face off before turning and heading towards the door*
Gabe Shelley: Have fun with her Gabe... Maybe she'll actually mean something to you..
*I start to open the door Gabe slams the door shut with his hand, causing me to jump*
Gabe Shelley: YOU meant something to me damn it!
*His eyes are filled with passion, emotions that he hadn't felt in a while. He's upset more than anything and it shows.*
Alexia Fender: MEANT... until I had to go find JEssie... Then I meant nothing but another notch in your belt.. "Hey guess what... I fucked CMA winner Alexia Fender"
Gabe Shelley: You know that's not the type of guy I am.
*He looks at me, with tears in his eyes.*
Gabe Shelley: If you really think that is all this was, that I'm that type of guy... Then you didn't know me or care about me like I thought.
Alexia Fender: Don't you DARE turn this around on me!! I went to fnd my best friend who, the whole time I was looking, I thought was dead! And you stayed here... And moved on!
Gabe Shelley: Just because I'm dating Natalie doesn't mean that I don't still care! You don't think I was happy to see you last week?
Alexia Fender: Don't Gabe.. Just don't... I can't... I can't do this... You've moved on.. fine.. whatever... Then go to her...
*I step away from the door, leaving him plenty of room to open it and leave*
Gabe Shelley: I know you hate me, that's fine but don't you EVER think you weren't more to me than just another girl. Don't you dare I DIDN'T care, because I do.
*He takes a step towards the door, and I turn away, again, refusing to let him see me cry.*
Alexia Fender: Goodbye Gabe...
*Without trying to, I let out a small sob. Suddenly, I'm being turned around, And Gabe's hands are on my face, wiping my tears away. I pull his hands off of me and shake my head *
Alexia Fender: Just go...
Gabe Shelley: Stop...
*He starts wiping my tears away again, But I back up again*
Alexia Fender: Gabe... go...
Gabe Shelley: I don't know what to say to you, Alexia.
Alexia Fender: Just further proof... Just go..
*I look down and lean back against the wall behind me, He places his hands on the wall above my shoulders and leans in*
Gabe Shelley: You are so stubborn you know that? Why can't you believe me? That you weren't more than just another girl, that you are special to me.
Alexia Fender: Because you've moved on... and it was so easy for you to do it... Gabe please.... just go...
Gabe Shelley: I never said I moved on, why can't you get that?
Alexia Fender: You're with someone else... Thats moving on..
Gabe Shelley: That's dating someone else, hearts just don't let go when they were in love.
Alexia Fender: They don't attach to other people either... NOR do they attempt to...
Gabe Shelley: You're acting as if I went out scoping chicks at the bar or said I needed to find someone else cause I was lonely. That's not what happened.
Alexia Fender: It doesn;t matter how it happened Gabe.. Go.. Go be with Natalie.. Go be happy... just go...
*I reach up and my hands on his chest, pushing him away, He fights me and puts his hands back on the wall, Before leaning his head down and pressing his lips to mine. I feel his hands move to my face as he continues to kiss me, and i twist his shirt in my hands. After a minute, He pulls away and I keep my eyes closed, and my head on the wall. I feel his hands slide off my face. He brushes a few locks of hai off my face, but I keep my eyes closed.*
Gabe Shelley: Alexia... I never meant to hurt you, I just want you to believe that. I still care about you, I always will.
*I finally look at him, having supressed my tears the best I could. I avert my eyes from his and head towards the door, I put my hand on the doorknob and turn to him*
Alexia Fender: You can;t have us both Gabe...
*He doesnlt turn around to face me, but I see him lean his head on the wall.*
Gabe Shelley: ... yeah
Alexia Fender: Shes a lucky girl... She should know that..
*I open the door slowly and look down*
Alexia Fender: Goodbye Gabe...
*He goes to turn around, a tear in his eye yet unsure what to say. *
Gabe Shelley: Alexi--...
*She's gone. He slides along the wall to the floor and just sighs, shaking his head and trying to sort emotions.*